I haven’t fully realized what it means to be me
to do what I do
when I speak, they listen
when I go, they follow
because when I go
I lead
I haven’t fully realized what it means to be me
with what I’ve been through
I read about it sometimes, in these journals of mine
I never would’ve thought I’d be here
I haven’t really realized what it means to be me
to be here
that means I kept trying
I kept writing
I kept speaking, going
I didn’t pay too much attention to the becoming, so now I’m not really sure what it means to be me
and I want to be
I want to be
I want to be happy with me, proud of me, patient with me, nice to me, funny to me, beautiful to me
enough to me
4.21.19