i fear what i want
i dream big so i fear what i want and i fear what i need to get what i want because i don’t know what i need and i told myself to never settle but i keep ending up among stars when i should be on Mars, and they blind me, bind me
i fear what i want because i know i can have it it’s so close i could grab it but i hate asking for help i hate feeling helpless, and you’re present but your presence always helps less than you mean it to, and i couldn’t blame you
you don’t fear what i want
you could hold my Mars in the palm of your hand
to you, my Mars will always be a grain of sand
5.3.17
i fear what i want
i dream big so i fear what i want and i fear what i need to get what i want because i know what i need and i told myself to never settle but i keep ending up among stars when i should be on Mars, and they blind me, bind me
i fear what i want because i know i can have it it’s so close i could grab it but i hate asking for help i hate feeling helpless, but You’re present and Your presence makes me feel blessed like you mean it to, for that i thank You
You don’t fear what i want
You hold my Mars in the palm of Your hand
to You, my Mars will always be a grain of sand
7.25.17
I thought I could rewrite this, but I don’t fear as much anymore
I know what I want and I know I can have it, sometimes I spend a bit too long in the locker roo m ut I still go for it
I can see the stars before I get to Mars and yet I take them all in, enjoying the view, as I should
I know I’ll end up somewhere
I know what I want and I know I can have it, it’s so close I could grab it, I hate asking for help and I hate feeling helpless, but I do it anyway, because You’re present and Your presence makes me feel blessed like you mean it to, for that I thank You
You don’t fear what I want
You hold my Mars in the palm of Your hand
to You, my Mars will always be a grain of sand
and the palm of Your hand will always be a safe place to land
2.7.2020
Vessel in the Valley 