frozen 2 review, but make it about God

I watched Frozen 2 two nights ago, for the second time

by choice

I grew up a Disney girl and will always be a Disney girl

but because I’m also a thinker, I wrote down the quotes that resonated with me and reflected on them, blog-style, in my journal afterwards

think I love you 3,000, but Disney.

 

this post will make the most sense if you’ve watched the movie, which makes more sense if you’ve watched the first one, but I’ll try to add enough context for those of y’all who just want the key points! I kinda float back and forth between talking to me and talking to y’all, so as always, let me know if you need any clarification in the comments! anything not italicized was added after my original journal sesh. *insert Into The Unknown-related pun as a good transistion*

 

“3.27.2020 | 12:54 AM

Frozen 2 was a good movie

I wrote some things down

  • “when one can see no future, all one can do is the next right thing”
    • wrote that down twice
  • “I’m afraid of what I’m risking if I follow you”
  • “if all is lost, then all is found”
  • “until the river’s finally crossed, you’ll never feel the solid ground”

The first quote is originally said by Grand Pabbie, an old troll who can see visions. He pulls up to check on Queen Elsa and Princess Anna because the kingdom’s falling apart, but his vision has no conclusion. When there’s nothing to be seen, Grand Pabbie says the only thing to do is the next right thing. This comes up again when Anna’s dealing with grief, like big grief. She’d run off after her sister Elsa without saying goodbye to her man, (who’s been doing his best to propose, poor thing) and now her sister’s most likely dead. We say most likely because the magical snowman Elsa brought to life, who Elsa pushed away with Anna to try and protect them, just lost his magic.  And is definitely dead. So Anna’s fully alone, frustrated and defeated. At first, she considers succumbing to the darkness (of grief). She actually says she’s ready to.

“I’ve seen dark before
But not like this
This is cold
This is empty
This is numb
The life I knew is over
The lights are out
Hello, darkness
I’m ready to succumb”

Anna

Made me think of my toni morrison poem. But she knows that despite the utter lack that life has left her with, she has to do the next right thing. So she perseveres. This analysis ends kinda abruptly because I wasn’t ready to get into it yet, but more on this train of thought later.

The second quote is the one I heard first. It’s from Elsa, who’s going back and forth with an angelic voice she’s been hearing. She wants to follow it, but she recognizes her responsibility to her kingdom. As she goes on, we realize that Elsa doesn’t fear the journey, just what she puts at risk by taking it. Our want for adventure is often stifled by our fear of disrupting life as we know it. Funnily enough, the voice turns out to be Elsa calling to herself. Don’t think too about it too hard lol, I’m reading this article and they have their own explanation but *mine works too*. The truth of who she is and where she came from is only found as a result of taking this risk, so she was really scared of finding herself. Of following herself to find herself. mood.

Another way to look at this quote is to see the “You” as God. Whether you’re coming to Christ as an adult, or have known Him since you were a kid and had to hold onto Him as your understanding of the world grew, following Him can look very risky. The Bible has all these rules, all these standards to commit to and big sins to avoid, but everyone else is living their best life so why can’t you? 😦 Gotta miss out on all the fun stuff AND encourage others to give up on their fun to? That’s what it can feel like, until you realize that the biggest risk is found in losing God. I’ve been on both sides of the fence, but there’s really nothing this world can offer that outdoes God.

‘Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.’

Psalms 73:25-26

The third quote hit me very quickly. Sometimes I just know a thing makes sense, but finding the words to explain how can be tricky. I did my best sha. Also a line from Anna’s grief song, (it’s actually from the lullaby) it just makes sense to me. If all is lost, all must be found. If it’s not with you, it must be *somewhere*–this isn’t Schroedinger’s box. (I’m very proud of myself for spelling that that right in my journal) And while figuring something, or someone, out, if you know what it isn’t, you also have a better idea of what it really is. Also, when you have nothing in your hands, they’re open and free to receive anything. Losing what you have can also mean losing your limits. #thisisaWickedstanaccount

total movie review moment: I love how Broadway™️ it felt

Last quote, I think you have to listen to Rivers like 700 times to understand this one the way I do. All through the movie, they’re talking about Altoho-sumn, which is a river their mother would sing to them about in a lullaby. In the song, the “river” in the 1st verse becomes “mother” in the 2nd–yay foreshadowing. It all comes together when Elsa follows the voice (her voice) to Ahtohallan and finds her mother there as well. Really touching moment. I don’t remember when exactly this last quote is sung (it’s also in the lullaby lol duh), but it hit because I feel like I get caught up while I’m on the river. The waves are crashing and it’s dark and I’m freaking out, but instead of forging forward, I freeze. The fact that I’m in/on the river is louder than the fact that there must be solid land on the other side. So a perspective shift is definitely needed to get me through. The song comes in because there, the River is the Lord’s presence. Which I seek (turns out the lyric is “need” and not “seek”, but both make sense. my brain be movin y’all), word to Psalm 73 + 46. 

“I lay me down in
The rivers of Your presence
This is what I’ve been waiting for
Here is my heart surrendered, Lord”

Planetshakers

But being here isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, because I’m still on this Earth. I’ll still experience loss and be thrown into grief, into darkness. Thankfully, I can know it won’t last, not forever. But if my perspective isn’t steady, I start freaking out again. I started wrapping up here because it’s simply where I am in my journey. I was also getting physically and mentally tired because of all the acrobatics I did to keep up with these trains of thought. And now I’ll leave them for one more day, to see if anything else comes to me. (Day 3: not much did). I like how I ended this, though.

 

It takes practice

Discipline is a habit, and I’m developing it

I’m trying on passion, perseverance, patience

None of these things om easily, but going after them will always be the next right thing

 

be blessed bbys ✨

1:18 AM”

 

“This grief has a gravity
It pulls me down
But a tiny voice whispers in my mind
“You are lost, hope is gone
But you must go on
And do the next right thing”

Anna

2.15.18, 9.27.19

“hey y’all!

like ____ just said, my name is Iyaniwura Olarewaju, and I’m a senior at Cornell University

literally everything I study and do research on is science-y, but I’ve been writing since 2011. I don’t have a lot of poems from back then because when I started out I would burn everything

I was a very emotional pre-teen, and nothing made sense in my head so I would put my thoughts on paper, and then I would burn them

it was a great form of release back then, but I just got this iPad so I don’t think my dad would be very happy with me if I set it on fire

 

ANYWAY

 

even with all my flame-filled years of experience, I didn’t start sharing my poetry til 2017. that’s when I started my blog, Vessel in the Valley, and that’s the first time I got on stage with my writing

it was really weird

I was sitting in a chair, because I knew I was gonna get shaky

fun fact, it’s really hard to stand in heels for more than 3 minutes when you don’t go to the gym, but I digress

 

I didn’t usually have a name for my poems back then, and this one doesn’t have a name either

I just want to talk about Esther

 

full transparency, I don’t do Spoken Word, I just Speak the Word

I have the rhythm and the flow, my voice just doesn’t go boom like the Button Poets do

and it doesn’t need to

when the time comes, I can speak soft and smooth with a voice that feels like honey, I could sing melodies if I wanted to

I does that, among other things

but a few months ago, I got asked if I’d be free to perform some poetry on a Friday night, and now it’s 2:23 on a Friday morning and I’m finally getting ready

 

I really like the theme for tonight, songs of freedom

songs can bring freedom. I feel the release sometimes, when I remember to let go

words can bring freedom too, when you remember to use them

I’m finally getting ready to talk about the time when I couldn’t

 

there’s a lot of time, almost a year’s worth, that I just don’t have

it was taken from me

nothing made sense in my head but I didn’t have any paper left to put my thoughts on, they were all covered with notes for my chem final, I had a chem final soon

I couldn’t get my thoughts straight so I didn’t say anything

didn’t say no, didn’t say yes

didn’t say much of anything

nothing was making sense, so I waited to see if it would

 

it didn’t

 

and then a few months later, things were making even less sense in my head, so I said even less since I was already lost

I had already lost

my freedom

and my voice had gone with it

so I didn’t say much of anything, for a few months I just ran because I felt so scared, so confused, but when I finally recognized what I was running from, it’s like I gave up

 

I have very few memories from 2018, because it was just me in the Valley

looking back, I know God was there too, but I had completely given up on myself

it felt like he had taken me with him, since I hadn’t told him not to

it felt like it was my fault, so I locked myself in shame, in pain

it took so. long. for me to find any semblance of freedom

 

when I talk about the Valley, I am talking about Psalm 23

that was half of the inspiration for the name of my blog, Vessel in the Valley

“even when I’m feeling low, He fills me up”

that’s what it says in the search bar as you scroll through the site

the other half came from 2 Timothy, where it talks about the Vessels that are used for His honor

I made a commitment to stick with Him even when we went through the depths, but I didn’t realize how deep my seas would get

even now, I know they can get deeper

but at least now, I know that if He’s never left me, He never will

I wouldn’t have made it here on my own, I didn’t even want to

I’d really given up

 

since I’ve lost my freedom, since I was able to find Him in my prison, I have to ask if He brought me here for such a time as this

every day, everywhere I go, I ask “is this what You brought me here for? is this what You brought me through for? is it time?”

I’ve lost my voice, but I have it now, and I’m learning how to use it again

in the learning, I’m speaking, I’m singing my songs of freedom, I’m saying no, I’m saying yes

I’m using melodies and rhythms and flows and whatever I can to speak, to be my own witness, to bring myself justice

I cannot stay silent, because I know it’s only death that follows

I know that my voice can bring deliverance, my voice will bring deliverance

He’s given me a second chance

He’s helping me talk about the time that I couldn’t

 

*some silence*

 

sooo yeah, that was just the tip of the iceberg, but I really pray that everyone heard the Word they needed to hear. whether you’re asking Him to use you as His Vessel, or you’ve found yourself, lost in the Valley, or you feel like Esther, looking for a Mordecai to remind you that God really may have brought you here for a time just like this, I pray you got that. thanks y’all

*smile*

 

‘Then Mordecai told them to reply to Esther, “Do not imagine that you in the king’s palace can escape any more than all the Jews. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place and you and your father’s house will perish. And who knows whether you have not attained royalty for such a time as this?” ‘

Esther 4:13-14

revisions

i fear what i want

i dream big so i fear what i want and i fear what i need to get what i want because i don’t know what i need and i told myself to never settle but i keep ending up among stars when i should be on Mars, and they blind me, bind me

i fear what i want because i know i can have it it’s so close i could grab it but i hate asking for help i hate feeling helpless, and you’re present but your presence always helps less than you mean it to, and i couldn’t blame you

you don’t fear what i want

you could hold my Mars in the palm of your hand

to you, my Mars will always be a grain of sand

 

5.3.17

 

i fear what i want

i dream big so i fear what i want and i fear what i need to get what i want because i know what i need and i told myself to never settle but i keep ending up among stars when i should be on Mars, and they blind me, bind me

i fear what i want because i know i can have it it’s so close i could grab it but i hate asking for help i hate feeling helpless, but You’re present and Your presence makes me feel blessed like you mean it to, for that i thank You

You don’t fear what i want

You hold my Mars in the palm of Your hand

to You, my Mars will always be a grain of sand

 

7.25.17

 

I thought I could rewrite this, but I don’t fear as much anymore

I know what I want and I know I can have it, sometimes I spend a bit too long in the locker roo m ut I still go for it

I can see the stars before I get to Mars and yet I take them all in, enjoying the view, as I should

I know I’ll end up somewhere

I know what I want and I know I can have it, it’s so close I could grab it, I hate asking for help and I hate feeling helpless, but I do it anyway, because You’re present and Your presence makes me feel blessed like you mean it to, for that I thank You

You don’t fear what I want

You hold my Mars in the palm of Your hand

to You, my Mars will always be a grain of sand

and the palm of Your hand will always be a safe place to land

 

2.7.2020

wait til the end for the title

I like knowing you’re here

somewhere in the twists and turns beneath the high ceilings between the dividers, there’s you

doing what I do

enjoying the beauty of absence

but you’re still here, and I like that

I like knowing that I don’t have to know anything

knowing I can figure it out as I go along, like a mainstream song, the melody will catch on fast and the imprint will last and I’ll hum it as I walk through the prints and the charcoal sketches and the paint covered canvases, how full this absence is

 

1.25.17, a date with God

I want to be

I want to be like me when I grow up

 

The me the people know of

The me the people show love

 

I want to be the me I created

back when I was just a kid and 

nothing I did could compare to 

what I would do because 

 

when I was a kid

I wanted to be an astronaut

I wanted to fly through the stars

be the first girl on Mars

an astronaut

 

but now

I just want to be me

I just want to be happy

I just want to be free

 

2.9.17

366 days

by God’s grace, I’ll have 366 more days

1 more year to try again

 

cuz let’s be honest, 2019 was not what I expected

I probably wasn’t expecting anything, not after my 2018

wasn’t expecting anything besides a break

hint: I didn’t get one

 

or maybe I didn’t give it to myself

 

with all the journals and therapy appointments and prayer sessions, it’s become very clear that I can be so hard on myself

won’t let myself have nice things

won’t let myself mess up

but seeing as that’s not working, I want to spend the next 366 just trying

practicing

learning

this time I want to give myself the break

this time I want to rest

 

because there’s so much I want to do! so much I CAN do!

I’ve seen just a taste of what I’m capable of and I’ve seen myself run from it because I couldn’t see the practical over the potential

 

or maybe I didn’t want to

 

maybe it was easier to run to the next best thing, to flex my Better Than Mediocrity and accomplish something that felt worthy of praise, of acceptance

but after the first few successes, maybe even just the first one, you realize you have to keep trying

practicing

learning

and that’s where I run

“can’t mess up what you’re not doing in the first place”

 

(that was my headspace for a lot of this year, just being honest. transparent. vulnerable. ew.)

 

but anyway, potential is very enticing

if nothing else, I’ve learned that there’s nothing I can’t do. that’s not a humble flex, it’s not even a flex. it’s just reality. there’s nothing I can’t do.

 

but can I do this by myself? no

 

it’s all through Christ, apparently

 

it’s become apparent, see, I’ve had to reconcile how little of this is up to me

it’s a light yoke that I was given, and the strength I needed to hold it was given to me too

 

sooo why?

that’s my question, why?

 

like the Prodigal Son, I want to come back home and give my Father a piece of my mind like Jacob did, until He changes my mind, convinces me I have a new name

a new identity

there’s still come convincing to be done, I’m just tired of pretending I’ve made it

I may not get the answer to my why, not one I understand, but I’m taking the peace that surpasses that

I don’t do New Years Resolutions, I do Right Now Resolutions, and I guess right now I’m saying that I want my peace

 

I’m tired of putting it to the side until I’ve proven that I’ve improved enough

Jacob was running from His mistakes

the Prodigal Son had nothing left to mess up

yet they were both received with open arms

was it the same kind of embrace? no

but they knew Who held them

they knew they could rest

they’d found peace

 

even if I have to go through another Valley, even if I have to wrestle through the night, I need to know I can rest, peacefully

no matter where I am, my Shepherd is with me

all 366 days He gives me, He’ll be with me

He was in every fire, every flood

He saw every tear

doubt can say what it will, but this I still know

because I’m still here

still holding on to the hope I have left, the hope that’s never left

 

 

references:

Practice what you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, and model your way of living on it, and the God of peace (of untroubled, undisturbed well-being) will be with you.

Philippians 4:9 AMPC

I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency].

Philippians 4:13

For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Matthew 11:30

‘So he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion for him, and ran and embraced him and kissed him.’

Luke 15:11-32

Then Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him until daybreak.

Genesis 32

‘And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ‘

Philippians 4:7

‘Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. ‘

Psalms 23:4

‘The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. ‘

Psalms 23:1-3

‘I am the good shepherd, and I know My own and My own know Me, even as the Father knows Me and I know the Father; and I lay down My life for the sheep. I have other sheep, which are not of this fold; I must bring them also, and they will hear My voice; and they will become one flock with one shepherd. ‘

John 10:14-16

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.

Isaiah 43:2

‘You have taken account of my wanderings; Put my tears in Your bottle. Are they not in Your book? ‘

Psalms 56:8

My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him.

Psalms 62:5

be blessed bbys ✨