how will I mourn you?
how will I grieve?
how will I carry on?
how?
what matters is not how
but why
why will I mourn you?
why will I grieve?
why will I carry on?
why will I spare you? why will I smile? why will I strive?
when you have taken
all that I have
when you have left me bare
when I don’t know
that you won’t do it again
when do I say no? when do I leave you? when do I lose?
you
myself
where will I see you?
where will I see myself?
how much of you,
of me, is there
that I don’t know?
that I can’t see?
that I won’t see?
when I’ve done all that I thought I should
and still come up short
how will I know you’ll redeem me?
how do I know you’ll stay true?
how do I know you’ll believe me?
how do I know you won’t leave me?
how do I know you won’t leave me?
that hurt me, in so many ways
it visualized a loss I don’t know how to lose
didn’t know how to lose
if I break, what will be left behind?
what will be left behind?
what will it feel like?
can I know now?
can I know, now?
can I prepare myself? protect myself?
am I strong enough to protect myself?
am I strong enough to protect you?
am I strong enough to lose myself?
am I strong enough to lose you?
I feel you in my bones
I sing you in my sorrows
I braid you into my being
I braid you into my being
I carry you with me
I carry you with me
I carry you
I carry me
we burn to begin again
from the ashes
from the sands
as the waves wash over us
we rise with the tide
as the waves wash over us
we rise to the skies
where else can we go?
what else can we do?
how else?
will I mourn you?
how else will I mourn you?
Vessel in the Valley 